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Showing posts with label 40 day meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 40 day meditation. Show all posts
Saturday, February 22, 2014
July 18, 2012: Links to YouTubes
Okay, so I thought I'd put links to the YouTubes I learned to meditate from, but realized I had not. Sorry about that for anyone who has been curious about WHAT exactly I'm doing for meditation. None of these are me, of course... just the YouTubes I've learned from. I hope they might benefit you, too!
July 16, 2012: Final Quarter of My First 40 Day Challenge (First Meditation Monday)
July 5. Day 31 No real bleeding, some streaks in otherwise clear stuff.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (7m), mfa (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (4m), calm heart (6m), tune-out. Total about: 55 minutes.
DAY 4 of CAM I felt tingles in my arms and hands and some crawly numbness in my face. Very neat feeling. (Not as strong as the first time I did the special breathing (without the kriya) for this meditation.
July 6. Day 32 Almost no sign of the end of the spontaneous abortion today. This is good news.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (7m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (8m), tune-out. Total about: 59 minutes.
DAY 5 of CAM I was thinking that I'd done a 5 minute conquering anger meditation yesterday, so why not increase it today. I was in at around 5 minutes when I realized I did only 4 yesterday, at which point it became amazingly clear why my arms were shaking! I figured, though, that since I was already past 5 minutes, I might as well go for an even 6. I did. The tingles and rush of warmth was substantial when I finally put my arms down. Nice. Didn't plan it, but NICE. :)
July 7. Day 33 I'm pretty sure the spontaneous abortion is completely complete. My body is still weak. Takes me too long to do things that I used to normally do... but healing takes time. And I'm allowing myself to heal and trying to be kind to me.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (8m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 57 minutes.
DAY 6 of CAM I felt tingles primarily in my hands today. My arms were shaking like crazy again by the time I was able to put them down. This is an intense meditation!
Sunday, July 8. Day 34 I believe my body is basically back to normal... sort of. From what I've read, the hormones are still wonky for a bit after the end of what is obvious shedding of baby....
"and it came to pass..." and so this will, too.
As for meditation, I did a much shorter one today because of extreme fatigue and a horrible headache: tune-in, neck roll (2 m), mfa (3 m), kirtan kriya (7 m), cam (3 m), calm heart (5 m), tune-out. Total about: 22 minutes.
DAY 7 of CAM Nice tingles in my arms today after conquering anger meditation. My right hand sort of "fell asleep" as soon as I was in the kriya. So strange.
July 9. Day 35 It's amazing how long (it feels like) it's taking to feel back to myself in strength and ability to do. Such is the healing process, I know, but it is still rather frustrating.
As for meditation, another shorter one today. I'm switching things around a little in a way that wouldn't matter to you. So: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 25 minutes.
DAY 8 of CAM Immediately upon beginning, the same "asleep" feeling came into my right hand. Weird. Then, as I continued, my left hand and arm "fell asleep". Both feelings went away immediately upon release of the position. Neat. Felt the tingles again. Nice.
July 10. Day 36 Temple today. I wasn't able to do an endowment as I planned... Heavenly Father had for me, an amazing healing experience scheduled. The crazy awesome part of it is that Jessie was the one that was sort of pressing us to get to the temple today. Then urging me to get going so we could leave when we did. There's a saying that goes, "There are no coincidences in the temple." I believe this whole-heartedly about LIFE! But since the experiences in the temple are usually sort of shorter and more condenced, it's easier to see them. :) We've experienced MANY of these. Like last month when we went, I thought I wasn't going to get to do an endowment because there was not one single male patron... at the last minute a couple arrived! They agreed to attend the session another lady and I needed to do (because of time constraints). It was just a lovely little miracle! Then today... such a lovely miracle and gift! Heavenly Father sure is GRAND!!! ^_^
As for meditation, another shorter one today: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (4m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 26 minutes.
At the end I had this really neat feeling of surging energy between my hands, held at my heart-center. As I sang the tune-out, the energy felt to vibrate there. Then, as I finished with a long Sat and short Nam, the energy dissipated. Very neat.
DAY 9 of CAM Almost immediately both hands "fell asleep," yet not. They tingled very nicely. Still a very intense portion and the top of my arms ache when I'm finished. Feel warm spread from arms down into hands when I return to relaxed receptive position. And the flush runs from my shoulders through my body. Very nice.
July 11. Day 37 Quiet day at home to catch up.
As for meditation: t-i, nr (5m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (4m), ch (5m), t-o. Total about: 26 minutes.
I think I have neglected to mention that I do sometimes have quiet rest periods between some of the portions of my meditaiton. I don't do it every time and there is no set amount of time I might just sit. But i especially like to rest bewqeen neck roll and meditation for addiction AND conquering anger meditation and calm heart meditation. :)
DAY 10 of CAM Felt the same tingles in my hands and face. Abated as soon as my arms went down to receptive pose.
July 12. Day 38 I feel this amazing sense of strangeness that my first 40 day journey is almost complete. I have a new goal, in addition to the Conquering Anger Meditation 40 Day Challenge I've already begun. I've decided to continue daily meditation for at least six months. The accomplishment of this goal will be no small feat for this Homeschooling Mama of four amazing kiddos. But I think working on it will improve my ability to be the Mama these kiddos need and the one I want to be for them. I just need to manage some logistics and make a few changes, but I do hope to increase the full meditation back to around an hour, perhaps more. And I may end up breaking it up into two meditations. One early, one late... along with my prayer and scripture reading... my own personal Devotional. ^_^
I'm going to post weekly updates (after this post) each Monday. I'm calling it Meditation Monday! ^_^ If you'd like to join me, definitely feel free! Leave a comment with a direct Link to your Meditation Monday post!! ^_^ We truly can become better people, and by so doing make the world a better place... one meditation at a time! :) heeheehee
As for meditation today: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (3m), ch (3m), to. Total: 21minutes
DAY 11 of CAM My hands did NOT fall asleep this time until they were in my lap. Tingles so much it felt like the tingly stage of when limbs "fall asleep." :)
July 13. Day 39 A good day. We had some friends over and much fun was had by all. :)
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (13m), cam (4m), ch (6m), to.
DAY 12 of CAM I felt a little numbness around my mouth and tingles in my cheeks. Neat.
Saturday, July 14. Day 40 Good day. Relaxing and restful. Realized Tea has a fever this evening.
As for meditation: ti, nr (5m), kk (17m), cam (4m), ch (8m), to.
DAY 13 of CAM Felt good tingles in my hands and arms.
Sunday, July 15th Day 14 of CAM Both Tea and Ria have fevers now. Bummer. But we did have a pretty long stretch (relative to our family) of good health. YEAY for all improvements!
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), kk (31m), cam (4m), ch (3m), to
I felt an amazing fullness in my hands after conquering anger meditation today. Really amazing feeling! Very interesting.
t-i = tune-in
nr = neck roll
mfa = meditation for addiction
kk = kirtan kriya
cam conquering anger meditation
ch = calm heart meditation
t-o = tune-out
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (7m), mfa (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (4m), calm heart (6m), tune-out. Total about: 55 minutes.
DAY 4 of CAM I felt tingles in my arms and hands and some crawly numbness in my face. Very neat feeling. (Not as strong as the first time I did the special breathing (without the kriya) for this meditation.
July 6. Day 32 Almost no sign of the end of the spontaneous abortion today. This is good news.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (7m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (8m), tune-out. Total about: 59 minutes.
DAY 5 of CAM I was thinking that I'd done a 5 minute conquering anger meditation yesterday, so why not increase it today. I was in at around 5 minutes when I realized I did only 4 yesterday, at which point it became amazingly clear why my arms were shaking! I figured, though, that since I was already past 5 minutes, I might as well go for an even 6. I did. The tingles and rush of warmth was substantial when I finally put my arms down. Nice. Didn't plan it, but NICE. :)
July 7. Day 33 I'm pretty sure the spontaneous abortion is completely complete. My body is still weak. Takes me too long to do things that I used to normally do... but healing takes time. And I'm allowing myself to heal and trying to be kind to me.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (8m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 57 minutes.
DAY 6 of CAM I felt tingles primarily in my hands today. My arms were shaking like crazy again by the time I was able to put them down. This is an intense meditation!
Sunday, July 8. Day 34 I believe my body is basically back to normal... sort of. From what I've read, the hormones are still wonky for a bit after the end of what is obvious shedding of baby....
"and it came to pass..." and so this will, too.
As for meditation, I did a much shorter one today because of extreme fatigue and a horrible headache: tune-in, neck roll (2 m), mfa (3 m), kirtan kriya (7 m), cam (3 m), calm heart (5 m), tune-out. Total about: 22 minutes.
DAY 7 of CAM Nice tingles in my arms today after conquering anger meditation. My right hand sort of "fell asleep" as soon as I was in the kriya. So strange.
July 9. Day 35 It's amazing how long (it feels like) it's taking to feel back to myself in strength and ability to do. Such is the healing process, I know, but it is still rather frustrating.
As for meditation, another shorter one today. I'm switching things around a little in a way that wouldn't matter to you. So: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 25 minutes.
DAY 8 of CAM Immediately upon beginning, the same "asleep" feeling came into my right hand. Weird. Then, as I continued, my left hand and arm "fell asleep". Both feelings went away immediately upon release of the position. Neat. Felt the tingles again. Nice.
July 10. Day 36 Temple today. I wasn't able to do an endowment as I planned... Heavenly Father had for me, an amazing healing experience scheduled. The crazy awesome part of it is that Jessie was the one that was sort of pressing us to get to the temple today. Then urging me to get going so we could leave when we did. There's a saying that goes, "There are no coincidences in the temple." I believe this whole-heartedly about LIFE! But since the experiences in the temple are usually sort of shorter and more condenced, it's easier to see them. :) We've experienced MANY of these. Like last month when we went, I thought I wasn't going to get to do an endowment because there was not one single male patron... at the last minute a couple arrived! They agreed to attend the session another lady and I needed to do (because of time constraints). It was just a lovely little miracle! Then today... such a lovely miracle and gift! Heavenly Father sure is GRAND!!! ^_^
As for meditation, another shorter one today: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (4m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 26 minutes.
At the end I had this really neat feeling of surging energy between my hands, held at my heart-center. As I sang the tune-out, the energy felt to vibrate there. Then, as I finished with a long Sat and short Nam, the energy dissipated. Very neat.
DAY 9 of CAM Almost immediately both hands "fell asleep," yet not. They tingled very nicely. Still a very intense portion and the top of my arms ache when I'm finished. Feel warm spread from arms down into hands when I return to relaxed receptive position. And the flush runs from my shoulders through my body. Very nice.
July 11. Day 37 Quiet day at home to catch up.
As for meditation: t-i, nr (5m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (4m), ch (5m), t-o. Total about: 26 minutes.
I think I have neglected to mention that I do sometimes have quiet rest periods between some of the portions of my meditaiton. I don't do it every time and there is no set amount of time I might just sit. But i especially like to rest bewqeen neck roll and meditation for addiction AND conquering anger meditation and calm heart meditation. :)
DAY 10 of CAM Felt the same tingles in my hands and face. Abated as soon as my arms went down to receptive pose.
July 12. Day 38 I feel this amazing sense of strangeness that my first 40 day journey is almost complete. I have a new goal, in addition to the Conquering Anger Meditation 40 Day Challenge I've already begun. I've decided to continue daily meditation for at least six months. The accomplishment of this goal will be no small feat for this Homeschooling Mama of four amazing kiddos. But I think working on it will improve my ability to be the Mama these kiddos need and the one I want to be for them. I just need to manage some logistics and make a few changes, but I do hope to increase the full meditation back to around an hour, perhaps more. And I may end up breaking it up into two meditations. One early, one late... along with my prayer and scripture reading... my own personal Devotional. ^_^
I'm going to post weekly updates (after this post) each Monday. I'm calling it Meditation Monday! ^_^ If you'd like to join me, definitely feel free! Leave a comment with a direct Link to your Meditation Monday post!! ^_^ We truly can become better people, and by so doing make the world a better place... one meditation at a time! :) heeheehee
As for meditation today: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (3m), ch (3m), to. Total: 21minutes
DAY 11 of CAM My hands did NOT fall asleep this time until they were in my lap. Tingles so much it felt like the tingly stage of when limbs "fall asleep." :)
July 13. Day 39 A good day. We had some friends over and much fun was had by all. :)
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (13m), cam (4m), ch (6m), to.
DAY 12 of CAM I felt a little numbness around my mouth and tingles in my cheeks. Neat.
Saturday, July 14. Day 40 Good day. Relaxing and restful. Realized Tea has a fever this evening.
As for meditation: ti, nr (5m), kk (17m), cam (4m), ch (8m), to.
DAY 13 of CAM Felt good tingles in my hands and arms.
Sunday, July 15th Day 14 of CAM Both Tea and Ria have fevers now. Bummer. But we did have a pretty long stretch (relative to our family) of good health. YEAY for all improvements!
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), kk (31m), cam (4m), ch (3m), to
I felt an amazing fullness in my hands after conquering anger meditation today. Really amazing feeling! Very interesting.
t-i = tune-in
nr = neck roll
mfa = meditation for addiction
kk = kirtan kriya
cam conquering anger meditation
ch = calm heart meditation
t-o = tune-out
July 16, 2012: Third Qarter of My First 40 Day Meditation Challenge
CAUTION: The following entries contain information about the spontaneous abortion I've endured on a day-by-day basis. I wanted the details for me and anyone else who may endure a natural spontaneous abortion... reference, basically. If you are easily upset or feel ill by descriptions of blood and such, do NOT read the first few lines after each daily entry.
Monday, June 25. Day 21 Bleeding increased again. So stressful. Jess found that 20-30% of pregnancies bleed in the first trimester. Dare I hope?
As far as meditating, I did another like last night. So tired. I feel unable to maintain the longer meditation I had built up to.
June 26. Day 22 I found out the hCG numbers fell drastically from last Wednesday 'til today. This bleeding is not the potentially normal for 20-30% of pregnancies. I am experiencing a spontaneous abortion. I cried much today. Mourning.
As for meditating, I repeated the last few routines, except that I forgot to do the Calm Heart part. Still felt really good, relaxing and helpful to meditate. I see even more reason for Father God to lead me to this technology for the human system. God is GREAT!
June 27. Day 23 Still bleeding. About the same as yesterday. Passed many large clots. So much pain today that I called a friend to ask if she had Ibprophen. She was over in under 10 minutes to give me some. Soon after I passed 1 clot in particular..... Close your eyes if you get grossed out by gross things... I held it. But I didn't cry. I felt like I wanted to, but didn't. A while later Jess asked me to bless the food. I began to pray and then broke down in blubbering tears and couldn't finish. Thankfully, at least, I wasn't in pain through all that.
As for meditating, another repeat of yesterday. I'm so super tired, mentally and emotionally. So thinking about even trying to meditate for longer than the bare minimum is exhausting. Yet, logically, I'm sure it would totally benefit me. This meditation stuff is so super... beneficial. But I'm just so tired. At least I'm maintaining.
June 28. Day 24 Still bleeding, but seems to be changing. I've had fewer and smaller clots. Tired and sad, but not crying. Shed some tears, but very few. It feels strange to express this... the lack of tears, but it is what it is. It's just that normally I'm a pretty big cry-er over crud that feels bad. So the absence of crying feels rather strange. I'm wondering if it's on delay for some reason. Or maybe it's a result of the meditating... that I'm changing so much. I mean, I've read how some people have had an EKG before beginning a specified period of meditating and then another at the end of that period of time and the brains of many/most look like they could belong to two different people. So, it's possible that this Tori I am becomming just doesn't cry so much. Who knows!
As for meditating: tune-in, figure 8 serpentine neck roll (about 4m), meditation for addiction (5m), calm heart (5m), kirtan kriya (13m), tune-out. Total about 29minutes. I sat in the MfA until my shoulders ached and then a little longer; which is how I got to 3 minutes previous days and 5 minutes today. This feels like a good indicator that I'm getting my strength back. Hopefully!
June 29. Day 25 Still bleeding, but significantly fewer clots. Gross, I know, but that's the way of it. Some of them are more sad than others....
As for meditating: Ria(day 10): tune-in, neck roll, calm heart, and tune-out. She's diggin' meditating!
I completed: tune-in, neck roll (4m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (25m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. So, about a 41 minutes meditation today.
June 30. Day 26 Still bleeding today. But less. Fewer changes through the day. Less blood; more sad.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (5m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. So, my total time in meditation today was about: 48 minutes. Sure didn't feel like it! I feel like I received some personal revelation, too, which is always lovely! :)
Sunday, July 1. Day 27 Still bleeding. Lost another large clot today. I'm hopeful that I may be through this passage soon.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (5m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart (7m), tune-out. So, my total time today was about 50 minutes. The awesome thing (and first time) abot today is how completely timeless my experience was. Each time I checked the clock the full period had passed or more (except once). Pretty wonderful, to me. :)
July 2. Day 28 Much less blood today. Almost no clots. Thought the bleeding stopped at one point.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (5m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), conquering anger meditation (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total time of about 52 minutes. Today's coolness is of a sort I've expereinced before when I do the kind of breathing I did for the anger part. Tingling in my face and arms. Very very cool feeling, I must say.
DAY 1 of an additional/new 40 day Journey, which is primarily focused on the conquering anger meditation. I'm still going to do and try all sorts of other meditations (as I have been doing a little bit), but I'm going to make sure to do the anger one every day for 40 day starting today on. Should be neat. I can definitely do with some bigger and faster changes in Tori regarding anger. (Couldn't we all?)
July 3. Day 29 Bleeding continues to decrease. I no longer need to wear a pad. Good healing progress. I'm glad, but a tiny part of me is sad. With the end of blood is the complete end of the pregnancy and baby... I don't think I can explain it, but it's just sad.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (3m), meditation for addiction [MfA] (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), conquering anger meditation (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about 49 minutes.
DAY 2 of Conquering Anger Meditation and I felt really neat tingling in my arms and a tiny bit in my face again today. I'm going to try to increase my time in this part of the meditation to 5 minutes after about a week. I believe my goal is 14 minutes of this meditation, which may not seem like a like a lot, but it's a rather taxing meditation, actually.
July 4. Day 30 Barely any bleeding. Just pink on the TP. I think this thing is almost done. I cried today, but it was only tenuously related to my feelings about the loss of this baby. And I did not cry much at all... barely any tears. Not normal for Tori in the past. Change... it's interesting!
As for meditation: tune-in, head roll (4m), MfA (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), CAM (4m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about 51 minutes.
DAY 3 of Conquering Anger Meditation (CAM) My arms and especially the palms of my hands tingled a great deal after my measely four minutes of this meditation today. It's really quite itense and difficult for me. My arms definitely are not as strong as they need to be to complete 14 minutes of this one!
For the final installment of the 40 days of meditation, CLICK HERE.
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