Second 1/4 of my 40 Day Meditation Journey/Journal/Experience
June 15. Day 11 I began teaching my girls a little about meditating. The most immediate effects I noticed from about 13 minutes of meditation: Ria and Tea fell asleep far easier than I can remember in recent weeks and Kat had a more difficult time falling asleep. Makes sense to me given what I know about their differences and similarities. :)
As for me, I completed 6 minutes of the medition for addiction (as I did yesterday, too). I have to say, if a war was resting on how long I could hold my arms up, it would have to over super-duper fast! I'm so weak! I could definitely see the benefit of having others nearby to help me hold my hands up! :) My report for today: I completed 31 minutes of the Kirtan Kriya, the 6 minutes of the meditation for addiction with the tune-in and tune-out for a total of about 39-40 minutes, probably. I wore a head-covering, but nothing on my back. I did not feel as scattered today as yesterday, but I'm not quite as tired, either. I did check the time more than I would prefer. I hope I can obtain a timer with multiple settings sometime soon. That would certainly be useful!
Again, I received personal revelation and some potential inspiration for a future project. Exciting stuff! ^_^
June 16. Day 12 I've been thinking about what's happening between meditation sessions. Felice Austin, the author of The Gift of Giving Life and the YouTubes I've been watching to meditate, says that it's not so important how you feel when meditating as how you feel between meditating (the same for hypnosis, probably). At first, I just felt GOOD and happier and more hopeful. Yesterday and today, not so much. Perhaps hormones. Perhaps fatigue. Perhaps not getting outside enough because of all the rain. Probably partially all three of the aforementioned. However, I do think there is also a bit of the trunced over and over again: that when I try to make improvements, the deceiver breaks out all the stops to hinder me. Have you experienced this? Just seems to make sense. I'm not quite half-way through my own 40 day journey, started to work with my girls (Ria especially experiencing some really good results as far as falling to sleep MUCH better last night and tonight, her first and second nights meditating respectively), and feel this feeling of: BLAH! So, I think it's a quartet working together: hormones, missing my gardens/sunshine, tiredness, and the devil playin' me.
Today's meditation was good. I did the tune-in, addiction meditation for 6 minutes, kirtan kriya for 31, and tune-out. I did cover my head today. For my girls' second day of meditating I had them try covering their heads. I also taught them the meditation for addictions. We, as a family, have some stuck thinking and I'm hopeful that this meditation will help each and all of us! I thought they looked really sweet. (I do try to help Jmy participate. And he does for a few minutes of sitting quietly, but then he's done.) Tea doesn't participate very long, but wants to. Kat did do it, but wanted to give up. Ria did all of it. I think Ria likes it a lot, though she didn't love the head covering part. She kept wondering why. I haven't been able to find really good explanations, so I just told her the best I understood: it helps us concentrate. They did
I did receive a little personal revelation tonight. Any amount of God speaking to me is wonderful! :)
Sunday, June 17. Day 13 For whatever reason, the 6 minute addiction meditation was the most difficult it's been since day 1. :-p I completed the same meditation as yesterday with head covered. I was more tired today. I think I was more focused, though. I checked the time less frequently and that feels good. I did feel some guidance. Not lots, but some and that's good. :)
The girls meditated again (as did Jessie, actually). It went well. Ria continues to fall asleep more easily than she really ever has. She definitely really liked the meditations. Today she said, "I feel so light and good and warm inside when we mediate. Kat, on the other hand (talk about opposition in all things!), is weighed down and focused on the difficulty, discomfort, and frustrations of meditating. They completed tune-in, addiction, 7 minutes of kirtan kriya, and tune-out.
June 18. Day 14 Just getting started today was more difficult than it has been. I was able to complete my meditation for addiction without checking the clock during the first 5 of the 6 minutes! YEAY! Small improvements are improvements. :)
Again, I completed what has been my regular for the last few nights. It went pretty well. Better than it has been going, I think. I checked the time far less frequently it seems like. For whatever reason, the frequency or infrequency with which I check the time really makes a difference to me. I did receive some personal revelation, little bit. And that always feels good, no matter how much it is.
Tonight I also helped my girls meditate. Again Ria loved it. At one point she told me, "I sometimes feel like there are angels circling around me as I meditate." Kat is still weighed down and not putting much effort or focus into her efforts. I'm not pushing it much. Just expressing disappointment and explaining my hopes for meditating for each and all of us. Today the girls did only tune-in, addiction, tune-out.
June 19. Day 15 Lots of the same, but some differences. I increased my meditation for addiction to 7 minutes today. I also added in a 3 minute calm heart meditation. So, I probably meditated for about 45 minutes. The girls did well, though Ria was in a foul mood over something else. She still fell asleep super fast tonight. Jess also meditated with us for his second time. The girls completed their fifth day of meditation and fourth day of the meditation for addiction.
June 20. Day 16 Got home very late tonight and girls went straight to bed... they missed meditating today. :( I'm sure Ria will want to pick it back up tomorrow.
My meditation went well. Covered head, tune-in, meditation for addiction (7 minutes), calm heart (about 4 minutes), kirtan kriya (31 minutes), tune-out equals about 45 minutes today. I'm grateful to feel changes... like it's easier and becoming ever easier to let go of things. This is NOT my strong suite (in and of myself, Tori), but God has led me to the tools that are making much faster work of this process of changing from the natural (wo)man than here-to-fore experienced. YEAY! God is GREAT!!!
June 21. Day 17 The girls (read: basically only Ria) meditated today. Jessie did, too, actually. Bare minimum: tune-in, meditation for addiction, tune-out. It went pretty well.
For me: tune-in, calm heart, meditation for addiction (7 minutes of shoulder torture), kirtan kriya, tune-out for about 45 minutes of meditating.
I continue to feel much better... much more free from the circular thinking that caused me so much mental anguish (generally, but even more so in the recent past). God sure does know what He is doing!! ^_^
June 22. Day 18 Ria wanted to do more than just the meditation for addiction today. Yeay! (seventh day; sixth for meditation for addiction) Didn't have time for it, but still great. :)
My meditation went well. tune-in (about 1m), meditation for addiction (7m), calm heart meditation (4 m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart meditation (9m), tune-out (about 1m). I did wear a head covering. The time passed very quickly this time.
Saturday, June 23. Day 19 I began to bleed today.
Ria (day 8) and Jessie (day 4) meditated today. Kat sorta tried. For them: tune-in, 3 minute mediation for addiction, 3 minute calm heart meditation, tune-out. Ria asked for kirtan kriya, but it was already too late at night.
Because I have been so very tired the past couple days, I reduced my mediation time: tune-in, meditation for addiction (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), figure eight serpentine head rolll (2m), calm heart (3m), tune-out: for a total of about 17 minutes.
Sunday, June 24. Day 20 Bleeding worsened. Very worried. Stressful morning at Church did not help.
Ria (9) and Jessie (5) meditated the meditation for addiction today. I did another like yesterday. Many reasons for it, the top of them fatigue. What a great one, though! Received a few bits of personal revelation. Praise the Lord! ^_^
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