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July 18, 2012: Links to YouTubes
Okay, so I thought I'd put links to the YouTubes I learned to meditate from, but realized I had not. Sorry about that for anyone who has been curious about WHAT exactly I'm doing for meditation. None of these are me, of course... just the YouTubes I've learned from. I hope they might benefit you, too!
Hope you ENJOY!
July 16, 2012: Final Quarter of My First 40 Day Challenge (First Meditation Monday)
July 5. Day 31 No real bleeding, some streaks in otherwise clear stuff.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (7m), mfa (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (4m), calm heart (6m), tune-out. Total about: 55 minutes.
DAY 4 of CAM I felt tingles in my arms and hands and some crawly numbness in my face. Very neat feeling. (Not as strong as the first time I did the special breathing (without the kriya) for this meditation.
July 6. Day 32 Almost no sign of the end of the spontaneous abortion today. This is good news.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (7m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (8m), tune-out. Total about: 59 minutes.
DAY 5 of CAM I was thinking that I'd done a 5 minute conquering anger meditation yesterday, so why not increase it today. I was in at around 5 minutes when I realized I did only 4 yesterday, at which point it became amazingly clear why my arms were shaking! I figured, though, that since I was already past 5 minutes, I might as well go for an even 6. I did. The tingles and rush of warmth was substantial when I finally put my arms down. Nice. Didn't plan it, but NICE. :)
July 7. Day 33 I'm pretty sure the spontaneous abortion is completely complete. My body is still weak. Takes me too long to do things that I used to normally do... but healing takes time. And I'm allowing myself to heal and trying to be kind to me.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (8m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 57 minutes.
DAY 6 of CAM I felt tingles primarily in my hands today. My arms were shaking like crazy again by the time I was able to put them down. This is an intense meditation!
Sunday, July 8. Day 34 I believe my body is basically back to normal... sort of. From what I've read, the hormones are still wonky for a bit after the end of what is obvious shedding of baby....
"and it came to pass..." and so this will, too.
As for meditation, I did a much shorter one today because of extreme fatigue and a horrible headache: tune-in, neck roll (2 m), mfa (3 m), kirtan kriya (7 m), cam (3 m), calm heart (5 m), tune-out. Total about: 22 minutes.
DAY 7 of CAM Nice tingles in my arms today after conquering anger meditation. My right hand sort of "fell asleep" as soon as I was in the kriya. So strange.
July 9. Day 35 It's amazing how long (it feels like) it's taking to feel back to myself in strength and ability to do. Such is the healing process, I know, but it is still rather frustrating.
As for meditation, another shorter one today. I'm switching things around a little in a way that wouldn't matter to you. So: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 25 minutes.
DAY 8 of CAM Immediately upon beginning, the same "asleep" feeling came into my right hand. Weird. Then, as I continued, my left hand and arm "fell asleep". Both feelings went away immediately upon release of the position. Neat. Felt the tingles again. Nice.
July 10. Day 36 Temple today. I wasn't able to do an endowment as I planned... Heavenly Father had for me, an amazing healing experience scheduled. The crazy awesome part of it is that Jessie was the one that was sort of pressing us to get to the temple today. Then urging me to get going so we could leave when we did. There's a saying that goes, "There are no coincidences in the temple." I believe this whole-heartedly about LIFE! But since the experiences in the temple are usually sort of shorter and more condenced, it's easier to see them. :) We've experienced MANY of these. Like last month when we went, I thought I wasn't going to get to do an endowment because there was not one single male patron... at the last minute a couple arrived! They agreed to attend the session another lady and I needed to do (because of time constraints). It was just a lovely little miracle! Then today... such a lovely miracle and gift! Heavenly Father sure is GRAND!!! ^_^
As for meditation, another shorter one today: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (4m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 26 minutes.
At the end I had this really neat feeling of surging energy between my hands, held at my heart-center. As I sang the tune-out, the energy felt to vibrate there. Then, as I finished with a long Sat and short Nam, the energy dissipated. Very neat.
DAY 9 of CAM Almost immediately both hands "fell asleep," yet not. They tingled very nicely. Still a very intense portion and the top of my arms ache when I'm finished. Feel warm spread from arms down into hands when I return to relaxed receptive position. And the flush runs from my shoulders through my body. Very nice.
July 11. Day 37 Quiet day at home to catch up.
As for meditation: t-i, nr (5m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (4m), ch (5m), t-o. Total about: 26 minutes.
I think I have neglected to mention that I do sometimes have quiet rest periods between some of the portions of my meditaiton. I don't do it every time and there is no set amount of time I might just sit. But i especially like to rest bewqeen neck roll and meditation for addiction AND conquering anger meditation and calm heart meditation. :)
DAY 10 of CAM Felt the same tingles in my hands and face. Abated as soon as my arms went down to receptive pose.
July 12. Day 38 I feel this amazing sense of strangeness that my first 40 day journey is almost complete. I have a new goal, in addition to the Conquering Anger Meditation 40 Day Challenge I've already begun. I've decided to continue daily meditation for at least six months. The accomplishment of this goal will be no small feat for this Homeschooling Mama of four amazing kiddos. But I think working on it will improve my ability to be the Mama these kiddos need and the one I want to be for them. I just need to manage some logistics and make a few changes, but I do hope to increase the full meditation back to around an hour, perhaps more. And I may end up breaking it up into two meditations. One early, one late... along with my prayer and scripture reading... my own personal Devotional. ^_^
I'm going to post weekly updates (after this post) each Monday. I'm calling it Meditation Monday! ^_^ If you'd like to join me, definitely feel free! Leave a comment with a direct Link to your Meditation Monday post!! ^_^ We truly can become better people, and by so doing make the world a better place... one meditation at a time! :) heeheehee
As for meditation today: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (3m), ch (3m), to. Total: 21minutes
DAY 11 of CAM My hands did NOT fall asleep this time until they were in my lap. Tingles so much it felt like the tingly stage of when limbs "fall asleep." :)
July 13. Day 39 A good day. We had some friends over and much fun was had by all. :)
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (13m), cam (4m), ch (6m), to.
DAY 12 of CAM I felt a little numbness around my mouth and tingles in my cheeks. Neat.
Saturday, July 14. Day 40 Good day. Relaxing and restful. Realized Tea has a fever this evening.
As for meditation: ti, nr (5m), kk (17m), cam (4m), ch (8m), to.
DAY 13 of CAM Felt good tingles in my hands and arms.
Sunday, July 15th Day 14 of CAM Both Tea and Ria have fevers now. Bummer. But we did have a pretty long stretch (relative to our family) of good health. YEAY for all improvements!
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), kk (31m), cam (4m), ch (3m), to
I felt an amazing fullness in my hands after conquering anger meditation today. Really amazing feeling! Very interesting.
t-i = tune-in
nr = neck roll
mfa = meditation for addiction
kk = kirtan kriya
cam conquering anger meditation
ch = calm heart meditation
t-o = tune-out
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (7m), mfa (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (4m), calm heart (6m), tune-out. Total about: 55 minutes.
DAY 4 of CAM I felt tingles in my arms and hands and some crawly numbness in my face. Very neat feeling. (Not as strong as the first time I did the special breathing (without the kriya) for this meditation.
July 6. Day 32 Almost no sign of the end of the spontaneous abortion today. This is good news.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (7m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (8m), tune-out. Total about: 59 minutes.
DAY 5 of CAM I was thinking that I'd done a 5 minute conquering anger meditation yesterday, so why not increase it today. I was in at around 5 minutes when I realized I did only 4 yesterday, at which point it became amazingly clear why my arms were shaking! I figured, though, that since I was already past 5 minutes, I might as well go for an even 6. I did. The tingles and rush of warmth was substantial when I finally put my arms down. Nice. Didn't plan it, but NICE. :)
July 7. Day 33 I'm pretty sure the spontaneous abortion is completely complete. My body is still weak. Takes me too long to do things that I used to normally do... but healing takes time. And I'm allowing myself to heal and trying to be kind to me.
As for meditation: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (8m), kirtan kriya (31m), cam (6m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 57 minutes.
DAY 6 of CAM I felt tingles primarily in my hands today. My arms were shaking like crazy again by the time I was able to put them down. This is an intense meditation!
Sunday, July 8. Day 34 I believe my body is basically back to normal... sort of. From what I've read, the hormones are still wonky for a bit after the end of what is obvious shedding of baby....
"and it came to pass..." and so this will, too.
As for meditation, I did a much shorter one today because of extreme fatigue and a horrible headache: tune-in, neck roll (2 m), mfa (3 m), kirtan kriya (7 m), cam (3 m), calm heart (5 m), tune-out. Total about: 22 minutes.
DAY 7 of CAM Nice tingles in my arms today after conquering anger meditation. My right hand sort of "fell asleep" as soon as I was in the kriya. So strange.
July 9. Day 35 It's amazing how long (it feels like) it's taking to feel back to myself in strength and ability to do. Such is the healing process, I know, but it is still rather frustrating.
As for meditation, another shorter one today. I'm switching things around a little in a way that wouldn't matter to you. So: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 25 minutes.
DAY 8 of CAM Immediately upon beginning, the same "asleep" feeling came into my right hand. Weird. Then, as I continued, my left hand and arm "fell asleep". Both feelings went away immediately upon release of the position. Neat. Felt the tingles again. Nice.
July 10. Day 36 Temple today. I wasn't able to do an endowment as I planned... Heavenly Father had for me, an amazing healing experience scheduled. The crazy awesome part of it is that Jessie was the one that was sort of pressing us to get to the temple today. Then urging me to get going so we could leave when we did. There's a saying that goes, "There are no coincidences in the temple." I believe this whole-heartedly about LIFE! But since the experiences in the temple are usually sort of shorter and more condenced, it's easier to see them. :) We've experienced MANY of these. Like last month when we went, I thought I wasn't going to get to do an endowment because there was not one single male patron... at the last minute a couple arrived! They agreed to attend the session another lady and I needed to do (because of time constraints). It was just a lovely little miracle! Then today... such a lovely miracle and gift! Heavenly Father sure is GRAND!!! ^_^
As for meditation, another shorter one today: tune-in, neck roll (5m), mfa (4m), kirtan kriya (7m), cam (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about: 26 minutes.
At the end I had this really neat feeling of surging energy between my hands, held at my heart-center. As I sang the tune-out, the energy felt to vibrate there. Then, as I finished with a long Sat and short Nam, the energy dissipated. Very neat.
DAY 9 of CAM Almost immediately both hands "fell asleep," yet not. They tingled very nicely. Still a very intense portion and the top of my arms ache when I'm finished. Feel warm spread from arms down into hands when I return to relaxed receptive position. And the flush runs from my shoulders through my body. Very nice.
July 11. Day 37 Quiet day at home to catch up.
As for meditation: t-i, nr (5m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (4m), ch (5m), t-o. Total about: 26 minutes.
I think I have neglected to mention that I do sometimes have quiet rest periods between some of the portions of my meditaiton. I don't do it every time and there is no set amount of time I might just sit. But i especially like to rest bewqeen neck roll and meditation for addiction AND conquering anger meditation and calm heart meditation. :)
DAY 10 of CAM Felt the same tingles in my hands and face. Abated as soon as my arms went down to receptive pose.
July 12. Day 38 I feel this amazing sense of strangeness that my first 40 day journey is almost complete. I have a new goal, in addition to the Conquering Anger Meditation 40 Day Challenge I've already begun. I've decided to continue daily meditation for at least six months. The accomplishment of this goal will be no small feat for this Homeschooling Mama of four amazing kiddos. But I think working on it will improve my ability to be the Mama these kiddos need and the one I want to be for them. I just need to manage some logistics and make a few changes, but I do hope to increase the full meditation back to around an hour, perhaps more. And I may end up breaking it up into two meditations. One early, one late... along with my prayer and scripture reading... my own personal Devotional. ^_^
I'm going to post weekly updates (after this post) each Monday. I'm calling it Meditation Monday! ^_^ If you'd like to join me, definitely feel free! Leave a comment with a direct Link to your Meditation Monday post!! ^_^ We truly can become better people, and by so doing make the world a better place... one meditation at a time! :) heeheehee
As for meditation today: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (7m), cam (3m), ch (3m), to. Total: 21minutes
DAY 11 of CAM My hands did NOT fall asleep this time until they were in my lap. Tingles so much it felt like the tingly stage of when limbs "fall asleep." :)
July 13. Day 39 A good day. We had some friends over and much fun was had by all. :)
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), mfa (3m), kk (13m), cam (4m), ch (6m), to.
DAY 12 of CAM I felt a little numbness around my mouth and tingles in my cheeks. Neat.
Saturday, July 14. Day 40 Good day. Relaxing and restful. Realized Tea has a fever this evening.
As for meditation: ti, nr (5m), kk (17m), cam (4m), ch (8m), to.
DAY 13 of CAM Felt good tingles in my hands and arms.
Sunday, July 15th Day 14 of CAM Both Tea and Ria have fevers now. Bummer. But we did have a pretty long stretch (relative to our family) of good health. YEAY for all improvements!
As for meditation: ti, nr (3m), kk (31m), cam (4m), ch (3m), to
I felt an amazing fullness in my hands after conquering anger meditation today. Really amazing feeling! Very interesting.
t-i = tune-in
nr = neck roll
mfa = meditation for addiction
kk = kirtan kriya
cam conquering anger meditation
ch = calm heart meditation
t-o = tune-out
July 16, 2012: Third Qarter of My First 40 Day Meditation Challenge
CAUTION: The following entries contain information about the spontaneous abortion I've endured on a day-by-day basis. I wanted the details for me and anyone else who may endure a natural spontaneous abortion... reference, basically. If you are easily upset or feel ill by descriptions of blood and such, do NOT read the first few lines after each daily entry.
Monday, June 25. Day 21 Bleeding increased again. So stressful. Jess found that 20-30% of pregnancies bleed in the first trimester. Dare I hope?
As far as meditating, I did another like last night. So tired. I feel unable to maintain the longer meditation I had built up to.
June 26. Day 22 I found out the hCG numbers fell drastically from last Wednesday 'til today. This bleeding is not the potentially normal for 20-30% of pregnancies. I am experiencing a spontaneous abortion. I cried much today. Mourning.
As for meditating, I repeated the last few routines, except that I forgot to do the Calm Heart part. Still felt really good, relaxing and helpful to meditate. I see even more reason for Father God to lead me to this technology for the human system. God is GREAT!
June 27. Day 23 Still bleeding. About the same as yesterday. Passed many large clots. So much pain today that I called a friend to ask if she had Ibprophen. She was over in under 10 minutes to give me some. Soon after I passed 1 clot in particular..... Close your eyes if you get grossed out by gross things... I held it. But I didn't cry. I felt like I wanted to, but didn't. A while later Jess asked me to bless the food. I began to pray and then broke down in blubbering tears and couldn't finish. Thankfully, at least, I wasn't in pain through all that.
As for meditating, another repeat of yesterday. I'm so super tired, mentally and emotionally. So thinking about even trying to meditate for longer than the bare minimum is exhausting. Yet, logically, I'm sure it would totally benefit me. This meditation stuff is so super... beneficial. But I'm just so tired. At least I'm maintaining.
June 28. Day 24 Still bleeding, but seems to be changing. I've had fewer and smaller clots. Tired and sad, but not crying. Shed some tears, but very few. It feels strange to express this... the lack of tears, but it is what it is. It's just that normally I'm a pretty big cry-er over crud that feels bad. So the absence of crying feels rather strange. I'm wondering if it's on delay for some reason. Or maybe it's a result of the meditating... that I'm changing so much. I mean, I've read how some people have had an EKG before beginning a specified period of meditating and then another at the end of that period of time and the brains of many/most look like they could belong to two different people. So, it's possible that this Tori I am becomming just doesn't cry so much. Who knows!
As for meditating: tune-in, figure 8 serpentine neck roll (about 4m), meditation for addiction (5m), calm heart (5m), kirtan kriya (13m), tune-out. Total about 29minutes. I sat in the MfA until my shoulders ached and then a little longer; which is how I got to 3 minutes previous days and 5 minutes today. This feels like a good indicator that I'm getting my strength back. Hopefully!
June 29. Day 25 Still bleeding, but significantly fewer clots. Gross, I know, but that's the way of it. Some of them are more sad than others....
As for meditating: Ria(day 10): tune-in, neck roll, calm heart, and tune-out. She's diggin' meditating!
I completed: tune-in, neck roll (4m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (25m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. So, about a 41 minutes meditation today.
June 30. Day 26 Still bleeding today. But less. Fewer changes through the day. Less blood; more sad.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (5m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. So, my total time in meditation today was about: 48 minutes. Sure didn't feel like it! I feel like I received some personal revelation, too, which is always lovely! :)
Sunday, July 1. Day 27 Still bleeding. Lost another large clot today. I'm hopeful that I may be through this passage soon.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (5m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart (7m), tune-out. So, my total time today was about 50 minutes. The awesome thing (and first time) abot today is how completely timeless my experience was. Each time I checked the clock the full period had passed or more (except once). Pretty wonderful, to me. :)
July 2. Day 28 Much less blood today. Almost no clots. Thought the bleeding stopped at one point.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (5m), meditation for addiction (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), conquering anger meditation (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total time of about 52 minutes. Today's coolness is of a sort I've expereinced before when I do the kind of breathing I did for the anger part. Tingling in my face and arms. Very very cool feeling, I must say.
DAY 1 of an additional/new 40 day Journey, which is primarily focused on the conquering anger meditation. I'm still going to do and try all sorts of other meditations (as I have been doing a little bit), but I'm going to make sure to do the anger one every day for 40 day starting today on. Should be neat. I can definitely do with some bigger and faster changes in Tori regarding anger. (Couldn't we all?)
July 3. Day 29 Bleeding continues to decrease. I no longer need to wear a pad. Good healing progress. I'm glad, but a tiny part of me is sad. With the end of blood is the complete end of the pregnancy and baby... I don't think I can explain it, but it's just sad.
As for meditating: tune-in, neck roll (3m), meditation for addiction [MfA] (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), conquering anger meditation (3m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about 49 minutes.
DAY 2 of Conquering Anger Meditation and I felt really neat tingling in my arms and a tiny bit in my face again today. I'm going to try to increase my time in this part of the meditation to 5 minutes after about a week. I believe my goal is 14 minutes of this meditation, which may not seem like a like a lot, but it's a rather taxing meditation, actually.
July 4. Day 30 Barely any bleeding. Just pink on the TP. I think this thing is almost done. I cried today, but it was only tenuously related to my feelings about the loss of this baby. And I did not cry much at all... barely any tears. Not normal for Tori in the past. Change... it's interesting!
As for meditation: tune-in, head roll (4m), MfA (5m), kirtan kriya (31m), CAM (4m), calm heart (5m), tune-out. Total about 51 minutes.
DAY 3 of Conquering Anger Meditation (CAM) My arms and especially the palms of my hands tingled a great deal after my measely four minutes of this meditation today. It's really quite itense and difficult for me. My arms definitely are not as strong as they need to be to complete 14 minutes of this one!
For the final installment of the 40 days of meditation, CLICK HERE.
July 9, 2012: My Second Post About My Experience with Meditation
Second 1/4 of my 40 Day Meditation Journey/Journal/Experience
June 15. Day 11 I began teaching my girls a little about meditating. The most immediate effects I noticed from about 13 minutes of meditation: Ria and Tea fell asleep far easier than I can remember in recent weeks and Kat had a more difficult time falling asleep. Makes sense to me given what I know about their differences and similarities. :)
As for me, I completed 6 minutes of the medition for addiction (as I did yesterday, too). I have to say, if a war was resting on how long I could hold my arms up, it would have to over super-duper fast! I'm so weak! I could definitely see the benefit of having others nearby to help me hold my hands up! :) My report for today: I completed 31 minutes of the Kirtan Kriya, the 6 minutes of the meditation for addiction with the tune-in and tune-out for a total of about 39-40 minutes, probably. I wore a head-covering, but nothing on my back. I did not feel as scattered today as yesterday, but I'm not quite as tired, either. I did check the time more than I would prefer. I hope I can obtain a timer with multiple settings sometime soon. That would certainly be useful!
Again, I received personal revelation and some potential inspiration for a future project. Exciting stuff! ^_^
June 16. Day 12 I've been thinking about what's happening between meditation sessions. Felice Austin, the author of The Gift of Giving Life and the YouTubes I've been watching to meditate, says that it's not so important how you feel when meditating as how you feel between meditating (the same for hypnosis, probably). At first, I just felt GOOD and happier and more hopeful. Yesterday and today, not so much. Perhaps hormones. Perhaps fatigue. Perhaps not getting outside enough because of all the rain. Probably partially all three of the aforementioned. However, I do think there is also a bit of the trunced over and over again: that when I try to make improvements, the deceiver breaks out all the stops to hinder me. Have you experienced this? Just seems to make sense. I'm not quite half-way through my own 40 day journey, started to work with my girls (Ria especially experiencing some really good results as far as falling to sleep MUCH better last night and tonight, her first and second nights meditating respectively), and feel this feeling of: BLAH! So, I think it's a quartet working together: hormones, missing my gardens/sunshine, tiredness, and the devil playin' me.
Today's meditation was good. I did the tune-in, addiction meditation for 6 minutes, kirtan kriya for 31, and tune-out. I did cover my head today. For my girls' second day of meditating I had them try covering their heads. I also taught them the meditation for addictions. We, as a family, have some stuck thinking and I'm hopeful that this meditation will help each and all of us! I thought they looked really sweet. (I do try to help Jmy participate. And he does for a few minutes of sitting quietly, but then he's done.) Tea doesn't participate very long, but wants to. Kat did do it, but wanted to give up. Ria did all of it. I think Ria likes it a lot, though she didn't love the head covering part. She kept wondering why. I haven't been able to find really good explanations, so I just told her the best I understood: it helps us concentrate. They did
I did receive a little personal revelation tonight. Any amount of God speaking to me is wonderful! :)
Sunday, June 17. Day 13 For whatever reason, the 6 minute addiction meditation was the most difficult it's been since day 1. :-p I completed the same meditation as yesterday with head covered. I was more tired today. I think I was more focused, though. I checked the time less frequently and that feels good. I did feel some guidance. Not lots, but some and that's good. :)
The girls meditated again (as did Jessie, actually). It went well. Ria continues to fall asleep more easily than she really ever has. She definitely really liked the meditations. Today she said, "I feel so light and good and warm inside when we mediate. Kat, on the other hand (talk about opposition in all things!), is weighed down and focused on the difficulty, discomfort, and frustrations of meditating. They completed tune-in, addiction, 7 minutes of kirtan kriya, and tune-out.
June 18. Day 14 Just getting started today was more difficult than it has been. I was able to complete my meditation for addiction without checking the clock during the first 5 of the 6 minutes! YEAY! Small improvements are improvements. :)
Again, I completed what has been my regular for the last few nights. It went pretty well. Better than it has been going, I think. I checked the time far less frequently it seems like. For whatever reason, the frequency or infrequency with which I check the time really makes a difference to me. I did receive some personal revelation, little bit. And that always feels good, no matter how much it is.
Tonight I also helped my girls meditate. Again Ria loved it. At one point she told me, "I sometimes feel like there are angels circling around me as I meditate." Kat is still weighed down and not putting much effort or focus into her efforts. I'm not pushing it much. Just expressing disappointment and explaining my hopes for meditating for each and all of us. Today the girls did only tune-in, addiction, tune-out.
June 19. Day 15 Lots of the same, but some differences. I increased my meditation for addiction to 7 minutes today. I also added in a 3 minute calm heart meditation. So, I probably meditated for about 45 minutes. The girls did well, though Ria was in a foul mood over something else. She still fell asleep super fast tonight. Jess also meditated with us for his second time. The girls completed their fifth day of meditation and fourth day of the meditation for addiction.
June 20. Day 16 Got home very late tonight and girls went straight to bed... they missed meditating today. :( I'm sure Ria will want to pick it back up tomorrow.
My meditation went well. Covered head, tune-in, meditation for addiction (7 minutes), calm heart (about 4 minutes), kirtan kriya (31 minutes), tune-out equals about 45 minutes today. I'm grateful to feel changes... like it's easier and becoming ever easier to let go of things. This is NOT my strong suite (in and of myself, Tori), but God has led me to the tools that are making much faster work of this process of changing from the natural (wo)man than here-to-fore experienced. YEAY! God is GREAT!!!
June 21. Day 17 The girls (read: basically only Ria) meditated today. Jessie did, too, actually. Bare minimum: tune-in, meditation for addiction, tune-out. It went pretty well.
For me: tune-in, calm heart, meditation for addiction (7 minutes of shoulder torture), kirtan kriya, tune-out for about 45 minutes of meditating.
I continue to feel much better... much more free from the circular thinking that caused me so much mental anguish (generally, but even more so in the recent past). God sure does know what He is doing!! ^_^
June 22. Day 18 Ria wanted to do more than just the meditation for addiction today. Yeay! (seventh day; sixth for meditation for addiction) Didn't have time for it, but still great. :)
My meditation went well. tune-in (about 1m), meditation for addiction (7m), calm heart meditation (4 m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart meditation (9m), tune-out (about 1m). I did wear a head covering. The time passed very quickly this time.
Saturday, June 23. Day 19 I began to bleed today.
Ria (day 8) and Jessie (day 4) meditated today. Kat sorta tried. For them: tune-in, 3 minute mediation for addiction, 3 minute calm heart meditation, tune-out. Ria asked for kirtan kriya, but it was already too late at night.
Because I have been so very tired the past couple days, I reduced my mediation time: tune-in, meditation for addiction (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), figure eight serpentine head rolll (2m), calm heart (3m), tune-out: for a total of about 17 minutes.
Sunday, June 24. Day 20 Bleeding worsened. Very worried. Stressful morning at Church did not help.
Ria (9) and Jessie (5) meditated the meditation for addiction today. I did another like yesterday. Many reasons for it, the top of them fatigue. What a great one, though! Received a few bits of personal revelation. Praise the Lord! ^_^
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June 15. Day 11 I began teaching my girls a little about meditating. The most immediate effects I noticed from about 13 minutes of meditation: Ria and Tea fell asleep far easier than I can remember in recent weeks and Kat had a more difficult time falling asleep. Makes sense to me given what I know about their differences and similarities. :)
As for me, I completed 6 minutes of the medition for addiction (as I did yesterday, too). I have to say, if a war was resting on how long I could hold my arms up, it would have to over super-duper fast! I'm so weak! I could definitely see the benefit of having others nearby to help me hold my hands up! :) My report for today: I completed 31 minutes of the Kirtan Kriya, the 6 minutes of the meditation for addiction with the tune-in and tune-out for a total of about 39-40 minutes, probably. I wore a head-covering, but nothing on my back. I did not feel as scattered today as yesterday, but I'm not quite as tired, either. I did check the time more than I would prefer. I hope I can obtain a timer with multiple settings sometime soon. That would certainly be useful!
Again, I received personal revelation and some potential inspiration for a future project. Exciting stuff! ^_^
June 16. Day 12 I've been thinking about what's happening between meditation sessions. Felice Austin, the author of The Gift of Giving Life and the YouTubes I've been watching to meditate, says that it's not so important how you feel when meditating as how you feel between meditating (the same for hypnosis, probably). At first, I just felt GOOD and happier and more hopeful. Yesterday and today, not so much. Perhaps hormones. Perhaps fatigue. Perhaps not getting outside enough because of all the rain. Probably partially all three of the aforementioned. However, I do think there is also a bit of the trunced over and over again: that when I try to make improvements, the deceiver breaks out all the stops to hinder me. Have you experienced this? Just seems to make sense. I'm not quite half-way through my own 40 day journey, started to work with my girls (Ria especially experiencing some really good results as far as falling to sleep MUCH better last night and tonight, her first and second nights meditating respectively), and feel this feeling of: BLAH! So, I think it's a quartet working together: hormones, missing my gardens/sunshine, tiredness, and the devil playin' me.
Today's meditation was good. I did the tune-in, addiction meditation for 6 minutes, kirtan kriya for 31, and tune-out. I did cover my head today. For my girls' second day of meditating I had them try covering their heads. I also taught them the meditation for addictions. We, as a family, have some stuck thinking and I'm hopeful that this meditation will help each and all of us! I thought they looked really sweet. (I do try to help Jmy participate. And he does for a few minutes of sitting quietly, but then he's done.) Tea doesn't participate very long, but wants to. Kat did do it, but wanted to give up. Ria did all of it. I think Ria likes it a lot, though she didn't love the head covering part. She kept wondering why. I haven't been able to find really good explanations, so I just told her the best I understood: it helps us concentrate. They did
I did receive a little personal revelation tonight. Any amount of God speaking to me is wonderful! :)
Sunday, June 17. Day 13 For whatever reason, the 6 minute addiction meditation was the most difficult it's been since day 1. :-p I completed the same meditation as yesterday with head covered. I was more tired today. I think I was more focused, though. I checked the time less frequently and that feels good. I did feel some guidance. Not lots, but some and that's good. :)
The girls meditated again (as did Jessie, actually). It went well. Ria continues to fall asleep more easily than she really ever has. She definitely really liked the meditations. Today she said, "I feel so light and good and warm inside when we mediate. Kat, on the other hand (talk about opposition in all things!), is weighed down and focused on the difficulty, discomfort, and frustrations of meditating. They completed tune-in, addiction, 7 minutes of kirtan kriya, and tune-out.
June 18. Day 14 Just getting started today was more difficult than it has been. I was able to complete my meditation for addiction without checking the clock during the first 5 of the 6 minutes! YEAY! Small improvements are improvements. :)
Again, I completed what has been my regular for the last few nights. It went pretty well. Better than it has been going, I think. I checked the time far less frequently it seems like. For whatever reason, the frequency or infrequency with which I check the time really makes a difference to me. I did receive some personal revelation, little bit. And that always feels good, no matter how much it is.
Tonight I also helped my girls meditate. Again Ria loved it. At one point she told me, "I sometimes feel like there are angels circling around me as I meditate." Kat is still weighed down and not putting much effort or focus into her efforts. I'm not pushing it much. Just expressing disappointment and explaining my hopes for meditating for each and all of us. Today the girls did only tune-in, addiction, tune-out.
June 19. Day 15 Lots of the same, but some differences. I increased my meditation for addiction to 7 minutes today. I also added in a 3 minute calm heart meditation. So, I probably meditated for about 45 minutes. The girls did well, though Ria was in a foul mood over something else. She still fell asleep super fast tonight. Jess also meditated with us for his second time. The girls completed their fifth day of meditation and fourth day of the meditation for addiction.
June 20. Day 16 Got home very late tonight and girls went straight to bed... they missed meditating today. :( I'm sure Ria will want to pick it back up tomorrow.
My meditation went well. Covered head, tune-in, meditation for addiction (7 minutes), calm heart (about 4 minutes), kirtan kriya (31 minutes), tune-out equals about 45 minutes today. I'm grateful to feel changes... like it's easier and becoming ever easier to let go of things. This is NOT my strong suite (in and of myself, Tori), but God has led me to the tools that are making much faster work of this process of changing from the natural (wo)man than here-to-fore experienced. YEAY! God is GREAT!!!
June 21. Day 17 The girls (read: basically only Ria) meditated today. Jessie did, too, actually. Bare minimum: tune-in, meditation for addiction, tune-out. It went pretty well.
For me: tune-in, calm heart, meditation for addiction (7 minutes of shoulder torture), kirtan kriya, tune-out for about 45 minutes of meditating.
I continue to feel much better... much more free from the circular thinking that caused me so much mental anguish (generally, but even more so in the recent past). God sure does know what He is doing!! ^_^
June 22. Day 18 Ria wanted to do more than just the meditation for addiction today. Yeay! (seventh day; sixth for meditation for addiction) Didn't have time for it, but still great. :)
My meditation went well. tune-in (about 1m), meditation for addiction (7m), calm heart meditation (4 m), kirtan kriya (31m), calm heart meditation (9m), tune-out (about 1m). I did wear a head covering. The time passed very quickly this time.
Saturday, June 23. Day 19 I began to bleed today.
Ria (day 8) and Jessie (day 4) meditated today. Kat sorta tried. For them: tune-in, 3 minute mediation for addiction, 3 minute calm heart meditation, tune-out. Ria asked for kirtan kriya, but it was already too late at night.
Because I have been so very tired the past couple days, I reduced my mediation time: tune-in, meditation for addiction (3m), kirtan kriya (7m), figure eight serpentine head rolll (2m), calm heart (3m), tune-out: for a total of about 17 minutes.
Sunday, June 24. Day 20 Bleeding worsened. Very worried. Stressful morning at Church did not help.
Ria (9) and Jessie (5) meditated the meditation for addiction today. I did another like yesterday. Many reasons for it, the top of them fatigue. What a great one, though! Received a few bits of personal revelation. Praise the Lord! ^_^
For the next 10 days, CLICK HERE.
July 2, 2012: First Post About My Experience with Medtitaion
The First 1/4 of my 40 day Meditation Journey/Journal/Experience
So, I've been feeling (for a while) that I should begin meditating again (as well as continue praying, of course). When I was twenty-five years old, I experienced some amazing effects of meditation, which sorta scared me. As a result of my fears (silly, I know), I was hesitant to begin meditating again. I can see now that if I had been an obedient daughter of our Heavenly Father's, I would have had a significantly better experience through my most recent trials. They would've likely still BEEN (as in, come to pass), but perhaps they may not have been so extreme or rough or negative... anyway... I'm so still always working on being immediately obedient to the direction Father gives via His Holy Spirit. But I am a weak woman. Truly... and truly human.
I began meditating again Tuesday, June 5, 2012. When I first started this Meditation Journal for my blog, I was planning to post the whole 40 days when I finished all of it. I've changed my mind because of how very long that post would be if I did!
My first meditation session (alone with a YouTube channel for guidance since I'm meditating with an entirely different form of meditation from that which I'm familiar with) went well. Rather easy. I experienced the regular yawning and tired feelings, but was able to focus and get through it and enjoy it. I did a very short meditation: only a couple minutes of a calm heart meditation and then another 11 minutes of another sort of meditation. I neglected tune-in and tune-out, though. Just totally spaced it.
June 6, 2012. Day 2 also went well. A few yawns and the need to clear my throat during some of the vocalized parts, but it went well. I felt energized and happier after the session. Today I did a tune in, same main meditation from yesterday, but a little longer because I added a meditation for addiction. So, today is my FIRST DAY of the meditation for addiction. The session went like this: tune-in, main meditation (11 minutes), another 3 minutes for the addiction meditation and a tune-out (only a minute or so long). A total of about 16-18 minutes, maybe. Totally do-able. :)
June 7. Day 3 was difficult. The "universe" (read: adversary) was trying to deter me from my path. It always will when good change is on the horizon. ^_^ The internet, for no reason I could discern, was not reliable. I simply could not pull up pages, randomly. I wanted to remind myself about a couple of points in the main meditation, but decided to just plod on ahead rather than allow the problem to stop me in my effort. And whaddyaknow but the internet began working while I was meditating. YEAY, cause I really needed some remindering about the tune out! :) Oh, and I increased my main meditation to 16 minutes today. Not a lot, but stepping it up bit by bit. ^_^ Still at 3 minutes for the addiction meditation. Probably my meditation time is right around 21 minutes for everything.
June 8. Day 4 was more difficult. I had the itchies like CRAZY! I kept interrupting myself to itch! My neck, my arms, my head... any and everywhere it felt like I needed to itch! And I did try to focus elsewhere and continue meditating without stopping, as I've done in the past, but I just had to stop to itch quite a few times! I did pick up where I left off after each itchy-fest and made it through. I did another 16 minute main meditation and still at 3 minutes for the addiction meditation. I felt really REALLY tired during the silent part of the meditation and I'm not sure that I didn't doze off for a few moments... the time flew by is all I know!
June 9. Day 5 was a little easier. I'm slowly memorizing the vocalizations, which definitely makes it easier. Definitely tired, but I don't think I dozed today, which is a little surprising cause I stepped it up a little. My main meditation was 24 minutes all by itself, plus I stepped up my addiction meditation to 4 minutes today. That brings me to right around 30+ minutes for the whole meditation. (More than 30 only because I review what I don't remember too well via YouTube before I begin each section for which I need reminders.) I'm a little worried that the adjustments I keep feeling the need to make during the addiction meditation is problematic or not normal. Want to leave a comment question about that soon.
Sunday, June 10. Day 6 started out a little yawny today, but it turned into a really great meditation! I did my tune-in and promptly lost track of time during the first part of my main meditation... so I went from planning to do twenty-four minutes of that part of my meditation to 31 minutes. Plus I also felt a sort of need to increase my addiction meditation to 5 minutes. It was during that portion of my meditation that I felt some "magic" happen. I've felt this during meditation before, but not nearly as constantly as I did today. At least, not as far as I can remember. I've experienced numerous occurrances, just not globbed together like today. So, the big deal is probably so NOT a big deal... but I felt this amazing tingling at the back left side of my head after I was about 3 minutes into the addiction meditation. The tingling lasted for probably right around 1 minute! SUCH a good, cool feeling!! I did finish out with a tune-out. So, the full meditation time today was probably around 39 minutes (plus a few review minutes). And I feel good!
Oh, one thing I wanted to note today, which I only really realized today as a result of going to church and being around lots of people there: I felt truly HAPPY again. Like the humungous trials I've been dealing with over the last... oh, year, have become a manageable thing. Maybe even like the pain of the hurts I have sustained doesn't really hurt so much and I can get past the whole holding onto things compulsively; cause I sure have wanted to let go, but didn't feel able and/or know how even though I was trying to rely upon the Atonement. Sooo... I'm thinking the pineal gland massage of the addiction meditation could be helping me out some. How neat, right? We'll see what more happens. I sure am ready for some super positive life changes! ^_^
June 11. Day 7 was fine. Nothing really special like yesterday to report. Jmy did wake up when I was in the middle of meditating. Thankfully Jessie also woke up, so I did not have to interrupt the process. I'm very grateful for the blessing of an uninterrupted meditation time! I completed 31 minutes for my main meditation and 5 minutes for the addiction meditation plus the tune-in and out for a grand total of about 39 minutes meditating today. Yeay! Now, off to bed! ^_^
I realized, rather suddenly today, that I haven't felt stuck in certain thought patters nearly as much lately! YIPEE! Seriously!!! I realized that it was MUCH easier to speak of factual events without feeling the anger/hatred previously attached to them. The things simply were; they were no longer massively charged with emotion. This is ginormous for me because in the past it has taken me ages to actualize The Atonement in my mind and heart over huge hurts. And, over recent problems it was already more difficult for me to change things no matter how much I attempted to turn it over to God. And then to realize that it was happening... IS happening... PRAISE the Lord for leading me to the resource I am using for these meditations! I truly believe my thoughts had created a "rut" both in my brain and probably in numerous layers of my energetic body so that I could not escape myself. And I am becoming daily more free. I have taken the action (meditation) and Father God is releasing me! I Bless His Holy Name!!!
June 12. Day 8 was significantly easier than any of the days previous. Still had a couple itchy moments, but they were not nearly as bad as they have been. My perception of the minutes spent in each section of the meditation was sped up during this experience. Whereas, in the past (with a couple of exceptions for a part of a section or two previously) each section would drag on and I would check the time and only a minute or two had passed. Yesterday I got to a point at which I checked a couple times and 3 minutes had passed. But today I checked and it was 3 minutes during each of the 5 minute sections (except the very last one, for whatever reason) and 5 minutes during the longest section (5 minutes being half the time of that section). I spent much time pondering about change/death (the one being integral to the other and the other being always a part of the one) while meditating today. Overall, a very good mediation. Nothing supercalafragalistic... not like the tingles that one day. *sigh* I hope I might experience something like that again in the future. Not sure why, but it was pretty special! :)
June 13. Day 9 was slightly, yet significantly different. I experimented with wearing a covering on my head and to cover my neck and back. Felice Austin, the creator of the YouTubes I'm learning mantra meditation from, suggests covering the head. I've read that both covering the head and back help increase concentration. I was skeptical that it would do anything at all. But, then again, since the Chakras are aligned to the spine, the crown the head, and the bottom area, it sorta makes sense that it could have some impact or another. Well, it definitely seemed to make concentration easier for me.
I completed my "regular" meditation. The first difference I noticed is that my mind was wandering, but not in random paths. My mind wandered in purposeful ways... like pursuing a thought about one aspect of the mantra or another... or testing possible futures? Anyway, it was very interesting. The next difference I noticed is that I didn't check the time until 4 minutes had passed for each of the first two portions of the meditation. I checked at 5 minutes and then another 4 minutes during the silent portion. During the last two sections I did check a little more frequently, but I think that's because I was so conscious about it by then that my thoughts about it interfered.
The addiction meditation was, somehow, just as difficult as without a head and back covering. I checked the time each minute and completed five minutes. All parts of my meditation, since I don't need to watch much of instructions any longer, lasts between 37-38 minutes. I'm amazed that I've completed 9 days!
June 14. Day 10 was more difficult. I felt so tempted to just not do my meditation today. During the main meditation, I was all over the place in checking the clock. I'm tired, perhaps that's the main explanation? I completely the same primary mediation as usual and 6 minutes of the addiction meditation. I feel good about that especially because that last minute was killer... silly as that may sound. I'm very glad I kept the ball rolling and didn't skip today! (I began working on trying to figure out the self-ePublishing of my "Absoners" story, which I've actually entitled: How We Became; The Same and Always Different... at least, for now. I made a stacked picture cover for my "book," at least the Kindle version. And all that brought me up to REALLY late (or early depending on how you look at it), but REALLY tired. *sigh* Working on that. I really am.
I also experienced some personal revelation. It is so nice, pleasant and enjoyable to learn the truths of God. Thus far, I highly encourage any and everyone to begin their own medition experiment.
Today is also DAY 9 of consistenly including the meditation for addiction.
For the NEXT 10 days, CLICK HERE.
So, I've been feeling (for a while) that I should begin meditating again (as well as continue praying, of course). When I was twenty-five years old, I experienced some amazing effects of meditation, which sorta scared me. As a result of my fears (silly, I know), I was hesitant to begin meditating again. I can see now that if I had been an obedient daughter of our Heavenly Father's, I would have had a significantly better experience through my most recent trials. They would've likely still BEEN (as in, come to pass), but perhaps they may not have been so extreme or rough or negative... anyway... I'm so still always working on being immediately obedient to the direction Father gives via His Holy Spirit. But I am a weak woman. Truly... and truly human.
I began meditating again Tuesday, June 5, 2012. When I first started this Meditation Journal for my blog, I was planning to post the whole 40 days when I finished all of it. I've changed my mind because of how very long that post would be if I did!
My first meditation session (alone with a YouTube channel for guidance since I'm meditating with an entirely different form of meditation from that which I'm familiar with) went well. Rather easy. I experienced the regular yawning and tired feelings, but was able to focus and get through it and enjoy it. I did a very short meditation: only a couple minutes of a calm heart meditation and then another 11 minutes of another sort of meditation. I neglected tune-in and tune-out, though. Just totally spaced it.
June 6, 2012. Day 2 also went well. A few yawns and the need to clear my throat during some of the vocalized parts, but it went well. I felt energized and happier after the session. Today I did a tune in, same main meditation from yesterday, but a little longer because I added a meditation for addiction. So, today is my FIRST DAY of the meditation for addiction. The session went like this: tune-in, main meditation (11 minutes), another 3 minutes for the addiction meditation and a tune-out (only a minute or so long). A total of about 16-18 minutes, maybe. Totally do-able. :)
June 7. Day 3 was difficult. The "universe" (read: adversary) was trying to deter me from my path. It always will when good change is on the horizon. ^_^ The internet, for no reason I could discern, was not reliable. I simply could not pull up pages, randomly. I wanted to remind myself about a couple of points in the main meditation, but decided to just plod on ahead rather than allow the problem to stop me in my effort. And whaddyaknow but the internet began working while I was meditating. YEAY, cause I really needed some remindering about the tune out! :) Oh, and I increased my main meditation to 16 minutes today. Not a lot, but stepping it up bit by bit. ^_^ Still at 3 minutes for the addiction meditation. Probably my meditation time is right around 21 minutes for everything.
June 8. Day 4 was more difficult. I had the itchies like CRAZY! I kept interrupting myself to itch! My neck, my arms, my head... any and everywhere it felt like I needed to itch! And I did try to focus elsewhere and continue meditating without stopping, as I've done in the past, but I just had to stop to itch quite a few times! I did pick up where I left off after each itchy-fest and made it through. I did another 16 minute main meditation and still at 3 minutes for the addiction meditation. I felt really REALLY tired during the silent part of the meditation and I'm not sure that I didn't doze off for a few moments... the time flew by is all I know!
June 9. Day 5 was a little easier. I'm slowly memorizing the vocalizations, which definitely makes it easier. Definitely tired, but I don't think I dozed today, which is a little surprising cause I stepped it up a little. My main meditation was 24 minutes all by itself, plus I stepped up my addiction meditation to 4 minutes today. That brings me to right around 30+ minutes for the whole meditation. (More than 30 only because I review what I don't remember too well via YouTube before I begin each section for which I need reminders.) I'm a little worried that the adjustments I keep feeling the need to make during the addiction meditation is problematic or not normal. Want to leave a comment question about that soon.
Sunday, June 10. Day 6 started out a little yawny today, but it turned into a really great meditation! I did my tune-in and promptly lost track of time during the first part of my main meditation... so I went from planning to do twenty-four minutes of that part of my meditation to 31 minutes. Plus I also felt a sort of need to increase my addiction meditation to 5 minutes. It was during that portion of my meditation that I felt some "magic" happen. I've felt this during meditation before, but not nearly as constantly as I did today. At least, not as far as I can remember. I've experienced numerous occurrances, just not globbed together like today. So, the big deal is probably so NOT a big deal... but I felt this amazing tingling at the back left side of my head after I was about 3 minutes into the addiction meditation. The tingling lasted for probably right around 1 minute! SUCH a good, cool feeling!! I did finish out with a tune-out. So, the full meditation time today was probably around 39 minutes (plus a few review minutes). And I feel good!
Oh, one thing I wanted to note today, which I only really realized today as a result of going to church and being around lots of people there: I felt truly HAPPY again. Like the humungous trials I've been dealing with over the last... oh, year, have become a manageable thing. Maybe even like the pain of the hurts I have sustained doesn't really hurt so much and I can get past the whole holding onto things compulsively; cause I sure have wanted to let go, but didn't feel able and/or know how even though I was trying to rely upon the Atonement. Sooo... I'm thinking the pineal gland massage of the addiction meditation could be helping me out some. How neat, right? We'll see what more happens. I sure am ready for some super positive life changes! ^_^
June 11. Day 7 was fine. Nothing really special like yesterday to report. Jmy did wake up when I was in the middle of meditating. Thankfully Jessie also woke up, so I did not have to interrupt the process. I'm very grateful for the blessing of an uninterrupted meditation time! I completed 31 minutes for my main meditation and 5 minutes for the addiction meditation plus the tune-in and out for a grand total of about 39 minutes meditating today. Yeay! Now, off to bed! ^_^
I realized, rather suddenly today, that I haven't felt stuck in certain thought patters nearly as much lately! YIPEE! Seriously!!! I realized that it was MUCH easier to speak of factual events without feeling the anger/hatred previously attached to them. The things simply were; they were no longer massively charged with emotion. This is ginormous for me because in the past it has taken me ages to actualize The Atonement in my mind and heart over huge hurts. And, over recent problems it was already more difficult for me to change things no matter how much I attempted to turn it over to God. And then to realize that it was happening... IS happening... PRAISE the Lord for leading me to the resource I am using for these meditations! I truly believe my thoughts had created a "rut" both in my brain and probably in numerous layers of my energetic body so that I could not escape myself. And I am becoming daily more free. I have taken the action (meditation) and Father God is releasing me! I Bless His Holy Name!!!
June 12. Day 8 was significantly easier than any of the days previous. Still had a couple itchy moments, but they were not nearly as bad as they have been. My perception of the minutes spent in each section of the meditation was sped up during this experience. Whereas, in the past (with a couple of exceptions for a part of a section or two previously) each section would drag on and I would check the time and only a minute or two had passed. Yesterday I got to a point at which I checked a couple times and 3 minutes had passed. But today I checked and it was 3 minutes during each of the 5 minute sections (except the very last one, for whatever reason) and 5 minutes during the longest section (5 minutes being half the time of that section). I spent much time pondering about change/death (the one being integral to the other and the other being always a part of the one) while meditating today. Overall, a very good mediation. Nothing supercalafragalistic... not like the tingles that one day. *sigh* I hope I might experience something like that again in the future. Not sure why, but it was pretty special! :)
June 13. Day 9 was slightly, yet significantly different. I experimented with wearing a covering on my head and to cover my neck and back. Felice Austin, the creator of the YouTubes I'm learning mantra meditation from, suggests covering the head. I've read that both covering the head and back help increase concentration. I was skeptical that it would do anything at all. But, then again, since the Chakras are aligned to the spine, the crown the head, and the bottom area, it sorta makes sense that it could have some impact or another. Well, it definitely seemed to make concentration easier for me.
I completed my "regular" meditation. The first difference I noticed is that my mind was wandering, but not in random paths. My mind wandered in purposeful ways... like pursuing a thought about one aspect of the mantra or another... or testing possible futures? Anyway, it was very interesting. The next difference I noticed is that I didn't check the time until 4 minutes had passed for each of the first two portions of the meditation. I checked at 5 minutes and then another 4 minutes during the silent portion. During the last two sections I did check a little more frequently, but I think that's because I was so conscious about it by then that my thoughts about it interfered.
The addiction meditation was, somehow, just as difficult as without a head and back covering. I checked the time each minute and completed five minutes. All parts of my meditation, since I don't need to watch much of instructions any longer, lasts between 37-38 minutes. I'm amazed that I've completed 9 days!
June 14. Day 10 was more difficult. I felt so tempted to just not do my meditation today. During the main meditation, I was all over the place in checking the clock. I'm tired, perhaps that's the main explanation? I completely the same primary mediation as usual and 6 minutes of the addiction meditation. I feel good about that especially because that last minute was killer... silly as that may sound. I'm very glad I kept the ball rolling and didn't skip today! (I began working on trying to figure out the self-ePublishing of my "Absoners" story, which I've actually entitled: How We Became; The Same and Always Different... at least, for now. I made a stacked picture cover for my "book," at least the Kindle version. And all that brought me up to REALLY late (or early depending on how you look at it), but REALLY tired. *sigh* Working on that. I really am.
I also experienced some personal revelation. It is so nice, pleasant and enjoyable to learn the truths of God. Thus far, I highly encourage any and everyone to begin their own medition experiment.
Today is also DAY 9 of consistenly including the meditation for addiction.
For the NEXT 10 days, CLICK HERE.
Dali Lama Wants Pizza
Jessie was reminded of this video when I mentioned my meditation journey. He explained it to me, funny. But then he required me to watch it. Thankfully, NOT a waste of time (unfortunately much of Jessie's preferred humor IS a waste of time and he'll totally concede that as true).
So, for your entertainment... some really smart humor!
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